The people who has lost the ingenious heads, cease to feel a reality in the weight, to dream of the future of children and grandsons. He wishes to grow up easy tomatoes, to earn on family livelihood in the market and not to think of, how to be pulled out from this humiliating position deprived of civil rights to which it has got at will of destiny, having returned after long struggle home. It will proceed until there will be new bright leaders. The people learnt by bitter experience should see to it, that laurels of new leaders have not taken root in their heads.

I am assured: if Dzhebbar Akimov and his colleagues  Mustafa Selimov, Bekir  Osmanov, Bekir Umerov and others by the time of the decision of our question would be live, the destiny of the people would develop today absolutely differently.

For the first time I have got acquainted with Dzhebbar-aha in October, 1964. I should head the first, after a long break, delegation to Moscow. Nikita Khruschev has removed, and we had a hope that new Secretary general Leonid Brezhnev can solve a problem of the Crimean Tatar people. This meeting has taken place in the house of Mustafa Selimov. Manuals gave me all gathered, and there were seven of them.

— Remember that you are the citizen of Soviet Union, — spoke to me then Dzhebbar-aha, — and our people at all the traitor. To us Lenin’s ideas are expensive, and we want, that the Political bureau has corrected those errors which have been made in the past concerning the Crimean Tatars.

Our delegation of seven people (for today in live remains only three) has stayed in Moscow till January, 1965. On the eve of New year on the instructions of Brezhnev we were accepted by ranking officers of the Central Committee of the CPSU Melkov and Osetrov. Our arguments were convincing. On January, 3rd the Secretary of the Central Committee of the CPSU has made the decision on returning of the Crimean Tatars home. Osetrov has told to us that in April there will be about it a Decree of the Supreme body of the USSR.

April has come, but the Decree was not. Here then under the initiative Dzhebbar-aha and Mustafa Selimov has been called secret meeting on which the decision to begin mass national movement for the rights was accepted. In the same place tactics and struggle strategy have been developed.

— We at all have no right to roll down on anti soviet moving, — spoke Dzhebbar-aha. — to «Joke» with this state it is dangerous. If our movement accepts extremist character, the people will simply throw out from here to Chukotka, deer to graze. On our banner — Lenin, only leaning against his works on an ethnic question, and they are brilliant, we can persuade, convince the Political bureau to face our people. Neither America, nor Europe will not solve our problems. Moscow that is why we will address only to it can accept the decision only.

Any wise man has told: «If the enemy is stronger than you, strangle him in the embraces». We and did within many decades. Continually we put it their Lenin, praised party. This tactics disarmed our opponents, especially in the first years. They simply did not know, as as to us to answer. This tactics has kept our national movement from full defeat and has allowed to continue struggle many decades.

To belittle these decades the people struggle, some our figures and pseudo-historians subject to sarcasm this tactics, write that in the Central Committee sent «faithful references» though perfectly understand that those years differently it was impossible to arrive.

Dzhebbar-aha was the shrewd psychologist. It was entrusted to me to prepare the national Reference to ХХIII to congress. We discussed its almost ready variant in the house at Mustafa-aha Halilov. By the way, I there have got acquainted with the representative of the youth organisation Refat Godzhenov whose 70 anniversary veterans of national movement celebrate these days. Some companions considered then that the document has turned out big and suggested it to reduce. Has Dzhebbar-aha listened to all and has told: «This document is intended first of all for the people, and then already for congress. Our people are even in hibernation, it it is necessary to wake and give it confidence of correctness of our business».

Under this Reference has subscribed, if I am not mistaken, more than 125 thousand persons. It means that it was read by each family. The reference has played a role of a spark which has kindled the bright fire shaking the party and Soviet organisations for many years.

This Reference began with such phrase: «Party — mind, honour and conscience of the people». This phrase the hand has entered Dzhebbar-aha. When we have brought this Reference to Moscow and have shown its second copy to the poet Tvardovsky, that has seized a red pencil and with fury has deleted this phrase: «Not to you to write about it, you know that it is a lie». But we have left it. Because trusted, Dzhebbar-aha knows that does.

And still to me his one phrase was remembered. When companions asked to strengthen historical section and rigidly to discredit a policy of imperial Russia, he has told: «Know, I have recollected words of one very clever politician:« the people which psychology has got stuck in last epoch, do not have future ». We should estimate realities and to think, how it will be apprehended by the today’s power. And in general it is better to think of the future, than to savour last insults».

He, and Bekir Osmanov, and all other ours as we them named, old men very much excited that some our young men in the heat of national movement were closed with dissidents. Sending me to Moscow in the autumn of 1967, they addressed approximately such words: «This small small group of the people, decided to struggle with the Soviet power, not in forces to organise such powerful movement, as ours. Here also wish to use us in the purposes. The part from them is offended that them, as well as us, do not start up home. And their native land — Israel. They should explain that we do not struggle with the Soviet power, at us other purposes.

In Moscow I have met with Jakir, have thanked him and his companions that they inform the world community on our struggle and have warned what to crush under myself our national movement, to translate it on anti-Soviet rails we to them we will not give, because for us it is equivalent to death. He, apparently, has understood all. But, nevertheless, the youth part actively co-operated with dissidents.

In February, 1969 the consequence on «Business of ten» has been ended, or «the Tashkent process of ten», the republican meeting of members of initiative groups in the house at Seitumer Eminov in settlement Lunacharsky thereupon has gathered. Have heard under examination, but Ruslan Eminov left under a subscription.

At this meeting there were Mustafa Selimov, Dzhebbar Akimov, Osman Ebasanov, Bekir Osmanov, the Riza Asanov, Rustem Halilov, Bekir Umerov, Iljas Mustafaev, Nafe Biljalov, Mustafa Halilov, Sulejman Veli, Edem Halilev, Amet Abduramanov and master of the house Seitumer.

After acquaintance with an evidence and the brought accusations have decided to keep separate from the dissident movement, trying to saddle, use our harmonious movement, to bring split in our numbers. And the most important thing — to deform all sense and ways of our movement, to withdraw it from a communistic, Lenin way and to allow to present our people as an exception as a part of an amicable family of the Soviet people that gives an occasion in the justification of our dispatch and the maintenance in the reference.

Our people have endured Stalin, Malenkov, Khruschev, Chernenko, Antropov and have waited radical changes in the Soviet system. The Berlin wall has failed, Gorbachev has got rid of thick-headed colleagues of type of Gromyko and, having begun democratic transformations, has made decision to return the Crimean Tatars home. Janaev known to us told to me that when to him have suggested to head the commission, he has refused. It was caused by Gorbachev and has asked, why he refuses. «Over this problem commission Gromyko worked already. Who I, and who he is. We in different weight categories, and, to tell the truth, I am afraid», — Janaev has answered.

Gorbachev has stretched him a folder in which the paper blank leaf lay:

— Begin with a blank leaf, — he has told. — these people should return home. At us for last 20 years has accumulated hundred thousand letters from them. Them in due time have slandered. The power should be fair to all citizens.

And when some our figures assert that one large action in Moscow has solved at once our problem, it raises a smile. Hurriedly such problems do not dare. Only years of the persistent struggle headed by such wise leaders as Dzhebbar Akimov, have forced the new democratic power to untie the Crimean knot.

Intelligence at Dzhebbar-aha was congenital. I underline, congenital. To want to become the intellectual, — all the same, what to want to become beautiful. It will not turn out. It is from God. He had never spoke badly about anybody and if someone responded at it about someone scornfully, he with softness inherent in it spoke: «It is character, it you will not change, but it all the same ours!».

He differed the greatest modesty. I do not remember, what year was it. I have casually learnt date of his birthday. Under my request factory children have cast the big medal on which there was an inscription from bronze: to «the Best representative of our people». Have arrived in Bekabad with colours and champagne. He has been awfully confused. «Well what I the best … — perplexed was planted he with hands. — what remarkable people at us are … you’d have distributed such medals to them…».

Then, on a consequence in Lefortovsky prison, inspector Fomin has venomously asked me:

— You have handed over Akimov a bronze medal. You really consider as he is the best? For what merits?

— He is the present communist-leninets, — I have answered.

By the way, on court in his last word he has told: «I was and I remain the communist». He, as well as many, up to the end did not change to that strategy and tactics which have been accepted in 1965 though perfectly knew how members of the Political bureau unscrupulously break Lenin precepts, knew, that there is this power.

With Dzhebbar Akim at me communication to his death did not interrupt. Working as the editor of the newspaper «Lenin байрагъы», I had to face a language problem. The dictionary at us was not. The live dictionary we had Jusuf Bolat. He knew language well, but the senile sclerosis often brought it. For example, at one editorial meeting it criticised children that they used a word «masa», and in a week abused for arabizmz and demanded to write not «masa», but «table».

Dzhebbar-aha, having learnt about it, has recollected that before war they have prepared the first volume of the dictionary. One copy have sent to Moscow, the second remained in an editorial case and has disappeared. He has advised to me to go to Moscow and to look for it there. «Promise 2 thousand roubles for it, we will find such money», — he has advised. But I have found nothing in Moscow. It was necessary to all employees of the newspaper to distribute under the letter operatively to create let not so exact, but though any dictionary. Dzhebbar-aha already after the conclusion has incurred the letter «е». It had a dictionary of Russian and it has started to work on it. But has not had time to finish.

It was great loss for all national movement. After all it unique could settle conflicts between groups, prevented splits which provoked KGB, was the ideological head and the friend of each Crimean Tatar.

In the newspaper «Lenin bairagi» we have published the big obituary. Next day me have caused in the Central Committee of Communist Party of Uzbekistan. The secretary of the Central Committee on Rano Habibovna Abdullaev’s ideology long knocked a fist on a table, and I was silent.

— That be silent? — She has furiously asked me.

— I listen to you and I think … What it the person was!. Has died, and of it still are afraid!.

Timur Dagdji, the veteran of the Crimean Tatar national movement